Fear based living is a terrible block in the way of progress. The Negative Mind hooks up with your ego to push you away from everything that is good for you. Fear reaches into the deep dark pits of your imagination and pulls up every possible nasty scenario it can think of in order to paralyze you. Then it calls on the ego to push you into things that will temporarily alleviate the fear and stuff it further into your subconscious. You simply cannot see clearly anymore. The Neutral Mind and Positive Mind have gone on vacation somewhere in La-La-Land covered in a thick fog of fear that blinds them completely. When you’ve gone through an enormously painful event, this can happen. Your mind is in survival mode, trying to protect you. Maybe someone hurt you in a way you couldn’t imagine, and your poor brain can’t process what happened. It shuts down access to everything, especially your heart. It’s a natural instinct to protect the soft inner layers of tissue, whether in terms of physical or emotional levels. In any case, fear is the new normal, and your brain is trying to protect you from everything, including yourself.
It takes more courage to face the Negative Mind than the biggest, meanest junk yard dog. Once that negativity gets on a roll, it stops you from doing anything. Your Radiant Body can pull to you all the things that would help you, but the negativity blinds you so completely. Even if you know it’s good for you, you can’t do it because you feel like you are going against every self-preserving instinct in your body and mind by doing anything. You don’t stop for any rational reason; you just stop in paralysis and movement in any direction feels impossible. You try to rationalize the fear, “Oh, I just don’t have the money for it now.” “What if it’s not what I’m supposed to be doing?” You heart and soul can be screaming for you to do it, but you just can’t hear it; they’re protected by the thick walls of the negative mind. You try to meditate, but all you hear is the constant yammering of the mind, and you can’t hear the guidance of your higher consciousness.
In this situation, don’t listen to the fear. That’s right, do something you know to be positive, even if it feels like it might be the wrong thing for you. Just move some energy. It’s not going to be easy. You may have to shed some tears and face some incredible pain. Even if it seems like maybe you can’t afford it, take a Sat Nam Rasayan class, go to a group sadhana, go to Sat Nam Fest, go to Solstice – do something that will bring you into a higher vibration. In that higher vibration, you will be able to access the safe space that Kundalini Yoga practice creates to make healing faster. Working on your own will move you forward. Working with group consciousness will elevate you faster. Taking that one step into a positive direction will push you forward to the next thing that will help you. Maybe your meditation will get back on track and you can finally hear that heart and soul.
One great practice is the 40 Day Global Sadhana. Sometimes this takes commitment, but knowing that there are over 10,000 other people doing it with you might just motivate you. It will certainly make for a more powerful experience than doing sadhana by yourself. When the negative mind is raging, it might seem like the practice isn’t doing anything. In these cases it can be helpful to do something more physical because sitting in meditation when you feel like screaming doesn’t make you feel very good about yourself. And while we’re talking about feeling good about yourself, check how you are talking to yourself! Use one of Ramdesh’s guided meditations from Journey Into Stillness to help you affirm love and kindness to yourself, make peace with your Negative Mind, and let your heart know that you will take care of it.
Sometimes it helps to talk to someone: a teacher, counselor, or minister. Having someone give you a more neutral perspective might help. Of course, when you’ve been hurt badly, you may not be able to access or face the emotions or the situation squarely. Maybe you just need to take time to let yourself heal. Stop trying so hard, surrender, keep a steady practice, and accept that some things take time to heal. It takes positive experiences to help you see that it’s safe to do things again. It was a specific circumstance that brought about what happened. Your higher vibration and outlook will bring better experiences to you in the future (especially if you strengthen your Radiant Body!). In time, you can learn to feel safe and trust that the Universe is there to bring you the happiness you deserve. Allow the love and light to enter in, and choose to see happiness when it seems darkest. As David Newman says in his song Stars “We are like stars, stars in the sky, the darker this night the brighter we will shine…” Allow your light and radiance to shine in the darkest of places, make peace, and let them heal.
To overcome your Negative Mind by strengthening the Positive and Neutral Minds, try this empowering kriya led by master teacher Anne Novak.