As a person who has committed her life to pursuing God and the spiritual path, it is difficult for me to admit when I am struggling or when I find myself floating outside of love and in the depths of fear.
One of the things I am learning is that once you decide to walk your spiritual path, does not ensure that you won’t be challenged or face obstacles to overcome along the way. In fact, many of us will face more of them as we pursue greater expansion and light. Our souls are infinite and carry many lifetimes of karma and lessons that we need to heal in order to achieve complete enlightenment. The human experience is finite and allows our soul to embody form and work through all our unique and individual earth lessons to prepare us to return back home to the stardust.
I assumed (oh boy!) because I am a Kundalini Yoga Teacher that I would automatically be void of having major conflict or lessons to learn in my life because I was disciplined; after all, I practiced yoga and meditation daily. I put myself on a gold pedestal hoping to exempt myself from the contracts and lessons my soul chose for me today.
Kundalini Yoga is a gift. No matter how much I struggle, I have a free access pass to the divine and healing if I let go of my expectations, accept my soul’s course and relinquish my need to dictate. Although Kundalini Yoga hasn’t taken away my challenges, it has given me tools to use to face each situation with peace and a greater ease if I choose to accept the blessings.
Despite my expectations, hopes and wishes for what I desired along this journey, I realized that one of my biggest life lessons is trust. When I became aware that I lacked trust in the Universe, I was embarrassed because the basis of faith is trust. I asked myself, “What have you been doing for the last 5 years?” I realized that if I did not possess trust that God would provide and had unlimited resources to shape, make and mold my life then I would continue to create suffering for myself.
All of my challenges have seemed like Black Mountains because I lacked the complete trust in God to help me through them. After years of feeling ashamed for not having complete trust and faith and the ability to surrender, I decided to get some answers.
It turns out trust is a lesson my soul brought in this lifetime for me to really learn how to surrender to the unknown force and let go of outcomes or expectations. After learning this information, I could see more clearly why my life has been so difficult and why my resistance levels have been on high.
We are already spiritual when we come to earth. It’s the human part of us that needs softening and re-remembrance of why we came here and that faith in the unknown is one of the only ways to survive on this earth.
I need to walk in faith in this life even if I don’t understand what is going on. I have to trust that all is as it should be and that God is leading me if I choose to follow. This is going to be a process for me to learn each moment of each day.
Take a moment today to breathe into your struggles. Admit that you even have them and then decide to give them some fresh air. No matter what your struggles are in life, trust is a good place to start even if you aren’t challenged by its lessons like I am. Try this meditation to get you started on the path towards faith and trust in God.
Meditation For Trust. You can find this in Kundalini Yoga by Shakta Kaur Khalsa.
To Begin: Sit in easy pose with your eyes slightly open, looking towards the upper lip. Arch the arms up over the head with the palms facing down. Men will put right palm on top of the left. Women will put the left palm on top of the right. Allow the thumb tips to touch as they point to the back. The arms are slightly bent and the hands are 6-8 inches above the head. Begin to whisper the mantra Wahe Guru at a rate of 2.5 seconds per repetition. Start with 6 minutes and increase your time to 11 minutes gradually.
To End: Inhale, retain your breath. Exhale and release your hands.
Uplift your spirit with faith and allow your vehicle to carry you to everything you need to practice trusting in the Universe.
Be easy and kind to yourself. Let God’s love for you shine and dissolve any of your fears.
Be blessed and loved!